joie de viv-re

Monday, October 30, 2006

Did you know.

There are actually 8 different taxi companies in Singapore! And. There is actually one company known as Yellow Top Taxi and another known as YELLOW TOP CAB!! I was just bored while waiting for my daddy to pick me up from the taxi stand.

Sometimes when I go through a really long day, it just feels so good to be able to spend some time with you, and that means so much to me. =)

2 days!

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10:49 pm

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Sunday, October 29, 2006

And I pray that you're the one I share my life with. I wanna be a part of your life, not apart.

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12:09 am

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Friday, October 27, 2006

Quick check!

3 weeks to the end of A Levels. =D

and

7 weeks to becoming a chao recruit of the Singapore Armed Forces. =S

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4:26 pm

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Wednesday, October 25, 2006

The cost of being a lazy ass.

Just did a quick calculation, and I think my tuition fees over the past 2 years when I'm in JC till the end of my Advanced Levels, would be in excess of $5000. Damn, that could have gone to buy Timberland shirts, Birkenstock sandals, oakley glasses, asics running shoes...

Damn, there is zero allowance to screw up this examination.

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5:30 pm

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Monday, October 23, 2006

I promise to stop dissing Liverpool FC,

until the next time they play Manchester United!

Wahahahahaha

Edit: sorry for the glaring English error, I wrote "until the next time they playED Manchester United!"

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9:58 pm

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Friday, October 20, 2006

I hope today marks a new beginning for us. =)

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8:48 pm

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If only..

life could be like a nightmare. I do wish that this period of time that I'm going through now could be like a nightmare. Because with nightmares, you wake up feeling slightly disturbed by them. However, you are always relieved that what you thought happened actually didn't. Most importantly, you know everything wasn't true, and you can move on without any painful reminders. If only,

life could be like that.

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12:58 pm

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Wednesday, October 18, 2006

The first signs that the terrible week is about to end soon. =)

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9:11 pm

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I am just going through the worst week of my life, ever. Save for the five days that I got stuck in Changi General Hospital for some mystery skin problem. Sometimes I really wished I could have someone to talk to, but since that isn't happening, I've been writing in a private blog instead. I really cannot think of anything worse. Maybe its just that life has been too smooth sailing for me.

There are points in your life when one thing goes wrong, your entire world just comes crashing down together with it. That's exactly how I feel now, nothing can go right. Maybe that just says how much you mean to me.

Just going to breakdown soon.

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4:26 pm

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Sunday, October 15, 2006

Edwin and Ryan are enlisting on the same day with me! Haha. I will either be in Mohawk, Orion or Raven. Heard quite abit of the 3 companies from my church members. Shall reserve the comments to myself.

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11:29 pm

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Saturday, October 14, 2006

Enlistment Notice.

Basic Military Training Centre School 2.
15 December 2006

2 weeks ago, I had a nightmare and woke up shaken, and you promised I would never lose you. I wonder if that has changed now.

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4:59 pm

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Friday, October 13, 2006

I really don't know what to do other than stand at the balcony and cry my eyes out.

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11:24 pm

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Thursday, October 12, 2006

On an emotional low.

I have been on a depressing low since the start of this week, I'm not sure its getting better. There was abit of relief, albeit very surprisingly, during the principal's talk. I guess it was the first time our level actually took so well to what he said. Too bad its probably the third last time he's going to talk to us as a cohort. Anyway, tomorrow is graduation ceremony, although I doubt I well be attending. Oh yes, my civics tutor (also known as a form teacher) gave us a bottle of chicken essence each! It was abit of a pleasant surprise although I don't exactly need it. Makes me feel guilty for not attending Teachers' Day and showing some appreciation.

Saw this foreign worker while I was on my way home from Potong Pasir today. And he was furiously trying to pick up as many fallen leaves and dump them into a basket, while his employer looked on with a stern face. At that moment, I felt really bad. What did they do to deserve the kind of life they lead. When they slog it out so hard, yet find themselves waiting on others, clearing up after us. And we, complain about the slightest things. Like the haze. I think this whole haze episode has just really proved how whiney many people are. I guess sometimes life is just too comfortable, that when the slightest discomfort comes, we complain like hell. Aiya, I'm just in a bad mood.

I don't wanna be lonely no more
I don't wanna be empty no more
Only you could unbreak this heartache
I've carried around

I really hate it when people tell me half truths.

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10:25 pm

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Monday, October 09, 2006

I'm sorry.

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6:15 pm

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Saturday, October 07, 2006

Enlistment!

Haha. I haven't got my letter lah. Kind of got a little excited when I heard Daniel say he got his. Commando leh, for glory and honour! Okay. Mine really wouldn't be any big deal, just curious to know if I get to enlist in December, and escape 3 months of rotting at home if its in March. And apparentently, this time round even JC kids have to enlist in units. Which I hope will not befall me since I don't exactly have the best perception of it. That being said, when did I ever have a choice. Anyway, one of my former Cadet Inspectors just enlisted yesterday. And everyday it just seems to get nearer and nearer, and everyone just begins talking about it to you. My parents and grandmother insisting that I eat more so that I don't go in and become thiner than a stick. I have been eating so much and not exercising that my tummy is showing!

Apparently, my grandmother is really pleased that I'm growing fat. =x

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10:42 pm

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Friday, October 06, 2006

You are loved.

The title of Josh Groban's latest single, got it from a classmate. I don't exactly want to trouble someone to code the song for me, so if you are interested in listening to it, you can go to his official website www.joshgroban.com

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1:23 am

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Wednesday, October 04, 2006

When we strive towards the impossible, we give ourselves the best possible.

Saw this quote in one of my msn contacts, something along this line. And I thought it was very true indeed. When I first saw this quote, it reminded me of the Campcraft Competition earlier this year. It took me back to that fateful afternoon of February 28 (is the date correct?). Standing on the sidelines of the pitching area under the sorching sun proudly clothed in the black of the campcraft team shirt. Only for all of our dreams to be shattered 2o minutes later as the structure fell because of the wind. It took 3 months for them to train, and 5 minutes for the wind to destroy everything. In the aftermath of that incident, there was abit of a debate on whether we had lifted the expectations too high. There was the question of whether we should have told them that trying their best was sufficient. I disagreed.

However, I did not manage to put it through to them. I just could not find the correct expression to convey what I thought about this matter. And the abovementioned phrase perfectly summarised what I felt. I wanted them to know that its only when we aim high, to target the impossible. That we push ourselves to work harder, go further. And that was why I never regretted setting the expectation level at getting into the finals, because only when we have that goal to work towards will we push ourselves and ensure we give of our best. You simply cannot set out saying "I want to do my best" without setting any tangible target. Likewise, the rationale behind me setting clear goals for my examinations. I don't want to kid myself 7 weeks later into thinking that "I've tried my best so no matter what the result is it doesn't matter".

The last 2 days have been kind of sad, because there is almost nothing to look forward to. And as much as I try to study, there seems to be a never-ending stream of things to learn and practise, notes to write, homework to complete. But its a mere 29 days away, and time waits for no one, so study hard everyone. Its all going to be over soon.

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9:18 pm

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Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Irritated.

2 of my interesting neighbours just walked past my house. And since my study room is adjacent to the common corridoor, and my back was to the window. I was wearing my old Zhonghua PE T-shirt, you know the white shirt with green trimmings at the neck and sleeve openings. So, the guy being the smart alec, walked past and commented "Zhonghua rocks" before letting out a giggle together with his sarcasm. In that instant, I felt so pissed and agitated I wanted to stick my head out of the window and shout back, "well, at least its better than your pathetic school (which coincidentally is the one close to my home)". But since I am in the process of learning how to manage my temper, this would be a good starting point, although I am really tempted to let them know how I think of their school when they return from dinner. It irks me when these "youths" try to act cool and all. Especially those school-kid bengs who think that everyone is scared of them because they tuck out their shirts and smoke in their school uniform. Or think that just because they walk around in a group, everyone will give in to their every wimp and fancy. And you realise when these bengs are alone, they are actually poor children without a proper upbringing, lacking security. They are actually timid people who only feel great when they have their gang members around to "protect" them from harm. Same for those who leave nasty comments on tagboards without their identities. The greater irony being that they advice their victim to have more guts.

Basically, what I meant was, if you dare to do something, please have the basic courage to stand up to the consequences of your actions. Its time that these immature people learn that they cannot hide behind their friends and gang all the time. Moreover, the time is right to grow up.

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9:59 pm

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Sunday, October 01, 2006

Bad day.

My day started with me waking up to some terrible nightmare feeling a little disorientated. It has not improved much after that. I hope it ends with Manchester United winning comfortably tonight.

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6:04 pm

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