Saturday, July 08, 2006
Was taking an afternoon nap just now, since there was no school and I had zero motivation to do anything. And I don't know to call it a dream or nightmare, but I started thinking about army life. And the dream was definitely pretty dumb, cause I know nothing about the army, but something I recall was that we had to go for swimming lessons??! Really weird, the things I dream of. Some other day it was about a secondary school classmate and a present classmate.
Had a boring past few days. Throughout the past week, I have really acheived nothing, absolutely nothing of note. Although the examinations ended only on thursday, mine effectively ended a week before. I don't know why, but motivation to do anything was grounded firmly at zero, and I think I floated around a lifeless being. My listlessness for the entire week could be summarised by today, I got up, had breakfast. Used the net to blog-hop and update myself on the latest soccer news. And fell into bed for a nap. Got up, had lunch. Used the net to blog-hop and update myself on the latest soccer news. And fell into bed for a nap. Yeah, that's why I am still awake at this hour.
I screwed up the 2 exams this week. I had all the time in the world to study, but I didn't make use of it, so I guess I deserve this shit I am in. I sincerely thought I had the chance to get an A for my chemistry, but after Tuesday's papers, I don't think so anymore. And this was in spite of the fact that the teachers were pretty nice not to include Reaction Kinetics and Ionic Equilibria, the 2 most dreaded topics on my list. Physics was worse. I am totally ashamed of myself. Never have I been more ill-prepared for an exam then this time round. I dared not look at my Physics tutor when he came round to collect the scripts. And its just going to get worse next week. I almost dread the 2 hour physics tutorial next Tuesday.
I really feel lost, I don't know where to get help for Physics. I desperately need it. My goal for the Advanced Levels are ABC, which can hopefully secure a decent course? Now, the bigger problem is actually acheiving ABC. It is not that difficult to get that, but for an idiot like me who wasted away one half years, it is a mountain to climb. But if anyone out there reading this knows of a decent physics tuition teacher who charges affordable fees, do recommend to me.
As for now, I shall enjoy this weekend to the fullest, and leave all the troubles for next week.
Reminiscence the past, cherish the present, look forward to the future with hope.
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