Thursday, May 18, 2006


Lost all belief.


I was totally lost today. The effects of the match and post match happenings are more or less stuck in my mind. And I am pretty much depressed because of it. I had been looking forward to the game. Organised with the other team, brought in players to meet the quota of 9. Just for everything to end with a bad day. It was a bitter pill to swallow.


The anger and frustration from the match yesterday turned more into a reflection of my own character and behaviour today. And I know I was wrong and wished I had not said many things in the a moment of anger. For questioning his friendship. I am truly sorry.


But nevertheless, I will stick with my decision to stop playing competitive matches. Its bad enough not to be able to contribute effectively. And horror, instead dragging the team down with me. I supposed, I will never want myself to be a burden to others, if I could help it. To my team's captain. Who asked me not to give up on the team. Its not me giving up on the team, because I am in no position to. Basically, I have given up on myself. I have lost the ability to play, if I ever had one. Or maybe, I was just deceiving myself into thinking I played well. Yesterday was disappointing to say the least, but it was a good reality check. And if I am not up to the mark, I don't want to pull a team down.


I'm sorry to my captain and the entire team for letting you guys down.

Reminiscence the past, cherish the present, look forward to the future with hope.
8:46 pm


Comments:
Giving up on yourself is the closest thing you can do to giving up on the game of football. We'd really like to get the best of you once again..
# posted by Blogger tboi : 8:12 pm, May 19, 2006
 
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Name:- Chen Yixiang John
Eggcrack:- 8 April 88
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