joie de viv-re

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

17 November 2006 1530 hrs.

Reminiscence the past, cherish the present, look forward to the future with hope.
10:03 pm

Thursday, August 24, 2006

Updates.

Our finalised Physical Fitness Test results were checked today, thus sealing my fate of going for the Physical Training Phase. I got a Bronze, which obviously is not enough to spare me the extra 2 months of National Service. That's my deserved punishment for not being determined enough to train up. Bah. Anyway, I was more or less prepared for it. Its just that stigma when everyone in your school kinds of condemns people who go for PTP and for me its worse because I guess someone who is a CI is expected to acheive a certain level of physical fitness. And thus the greater embarrassment. But aiyah, that's the consequence of being a lazy ass.

They were also going through the CCA testimonials stuff today. And they said that for those in Uniformed Groups who had not submitted our letter of acknowledgement from our Teacher Officers, then it was too late to do so. So I guess, I might be left with a blank CCA testimonial. If she doesn't accept the letter I plan to give her, then I will be pretty disappointed. The school just gives me the impression that people who serve in UGs are losers and out to cheat them or something. I don't know. Then again, sometimes seeing how other CIs 'serve', I suppose they are vindicated in their distrust of us. Nevermind. Hopefully my results would be sufficient in securing me my coveted place in a local university.

Meeting the guys for soccer tomorrow. Really hopeful that I can get a good game and not fall sick. Take care everyone!

Reminiscence the past, cherish the present, look forward to the future with hope.
7:05 pm

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Monday, August 21, 2006

2.5 weeks to Prelims!

Just got a bit of a miniature shock today when I realised I only have 2.5 weeks to the first Preliminary Examination paper. And just a mere 8 days if you include General Paper. And, I have not even started my revision. I know I am going to be so dead this time round, judging by the difficulty of the past year examination questions, and my 'strategy' would be to do as much of the Ten Year Series rather than other school papers. Hopefully it works out like it did 2 years back.

Reminiscence the past, cherish the present, look forward to the future with hope.
10:42 pm

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Friday, August 18, 2006

Tests are over.

The final block tests I am going to sit for are finally over, and they were probably the one I was most prepared for. Pretty obviously, the results count for nothing really at this point of time, but tests kind of give me that added push to study a bit harder, because I have a preset goal I know I need to acheive and complete within a specific duration. Its approximately 3 weeks away from the Preliminary Examinations and I have not even started my revision. So there is not going to be any let up in the frenzied pace of the last few weeks.

Felt like a piece of shit yesterday when I was travelling home. It doesn't help when one goes a few weeks without exercise then get down to around 3 hours of soccer under the burning sun. It left me entirely drained, with a splitting headache and nauseus. Thankfully I had the miracle drug called Panadol, and 10 hours of sleep to cure all that shit. And I have got to count myself pretty fortunate that I could more or less manage today's Chemistry test, having planned my revision for last night. Bah, any more of these kind of stupid decisions and I am going to screw the A Level examinations and my future as well.

Received this black package in the mail yesterday. Looked pretty weird to me. It was from the Navy, sort of an invitation to find out more about signing on as a Naval Officer. Sometimes when I watch those television commercials about the SAF, somehow you kind of get inspired. When I watch the National Day Parade, I just dream of standing there one day in the smart ceremonial uniform and carrying the sword. Before others bring me back to reality with how much shit and pain they had to endure just to wear their rank. Whether they are a specialist or an officer. And as much as I kind of enjoyed and cherished the time I spent in NPCC, I am definitely much more apprehensive about National Service. Guess I will just have to take it as it comes.

Reminiscence the past, cherish the present, look forward to the future with hope.
8:02 pm

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Monday, August 14, 2006

Stupid.

Now that I am getting to understand Physics a little better and practicing a lot more, suddenly Chemistry and Mathematics seem to be getting more difficult and foreign to me. The frustration is just building up.

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9:23 pm

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Saturday, August 12, 2006

My brother and I.

Apparently so many people I have met in my life think that my brother and I look really alike. Since young all the way till now. But whenever I look at him and myself in a picture, I can never understand why. When we were younger, all the church members would go like, are you James or John. Are the both of you twins. Relatives would play the guessing game every single Chinese New Year. When I went for my Secondary 3 ATC, there was this Cadet Inspector who came up to me during tentpitching and asked if my brother was this guy in NYJC. In Secondary 4, my brother was out with his friends in Orchard when some of the NP people remarked loudly that he was my brother. And he was absolutely disgusted and embarrassed. Approximately a month ago, 2 new youths in my church could not differentiate us, although my hair is so long and my brother sports the army look. And yesterday, this guy called him John at Marina Square before realising he had gotten the wrong person. HAHA. The interesting thing is, to date, I have not had anyone calling me my brother's name. Weird.

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11:45 am

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Friday, August 11, 2006

I can actually do TYS mechanics! I hope this would be the turning point, on towards a C!

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10:57 pm

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Thursday, August 10, 2006

I'm happy so I blog.

Finally, the moment I had been waiting to see arrived. Paul and Rahimah in the bottom 2! Whee! It came 4 weeks too late, but it was great nonetheless. I especially cannot tolerate it when Rahimah tries so hard to act cute and paint a painful portrait of herself every week during the results show. It was just as well that she got kicked out so that she could be spared from her apparent pain. Sorry to sound so mean, but I think image is extremely important. The last persons I would want to see representing Singapore as our singing sensations would be Paul and Rahimah. I hope either Jonathan or Hady snags the title, because they have the proper image as well as good vocals to go along with it.

After 3 days of going out, not fully but quite alot, its time to get back to reality. With 3 tests coming up next week, its going to be a sad weekend of mugging.

My dad received mail today and it was, My Son the NS man. And inside they were like going on what they can expect me to go through when I do enlist pretty soon. Yeah, like what we will get in the army camp and all. And my sister was like laughing, I guess that's the cynicism arising when you have an elder brother who has gone through it all. Its drawing nearer everyday..

Reminiscence the past, cherish the present, look forward to the future with hope.
10:49 pm

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Hope you'll be fine.

Reminiscence the past, cherish the present, look forward to the future with hope.
6:47 pm

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Sunday, August 06, 2006

Today was supposed to be good, because for the first time in my life, I actually could understand and enjoy a physics lesson. Yes, enjoy. I think my tuition teacher is really great, so hopefully all the money my parents going to spend will be repaid when I get my result next March. C.

Yeah, but some shit always have to crop up, and everytime I think of it, it just pisses me off. I feel very awkward when I see something wrong going on, yet have to just tell myself to stay out of it. Worse still when its something you have worked hard for. Then to just watch as the fruit of your effort begins to rot away.

I am boiling!

Reminiscence the past, cherish the present, look forward to the future with hope.
10:08 pm

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Saturday, August 05, 2006

I had a bad day. Its not because of you, its just me.

Reminiscence the past, cherish the present, look forward to the future with hope.
11:40 pm

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The most exciting thing I did today was to wear my pink slippers and go purchase milk tea. Bah, life's a drag.

Reminiscence the past, cherish the present, look forward to the future with hope.
6:44 pm

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Thursday, August 03, 2006

Feeling a little down again today. We got back out examination report card today, together with the Preliminary Examinations timetable. Its kind of like 6 weeks to the examinations, one week of exminations and another 6 weeks and Advanced Levels will be here. Its like so quick, the year seemed to have barely started, and time just flew past so soon. And I really hate to be this whiney, because life is not that bad for me. I mean like in Singapore, we have so much provided for us, I don't think its very fair of us to complain, but, I can't help it.

One thing I find pretty weird is how everyone tries so hard throughout our life. My principal was telling us today that 3 months of hardwork, and we can have 80 years of happiness, if we live to 100 that is. And I was thinking that it was pretty queer. Because when we work so hard now, its to get into university/university course we like. Is that not working hard now so that we can ensure we will have to work hard for another 4 years. And when undergraduates work hard in university, is it not to ensure they can get a good career. And when they do get a good career, they work even harder to ensure that they can keep their good career, or make it even better. Basically, its just working hard so that we can continue working hard. And by the time we finally stop working, we realise we're too old to enjoy life anymore. I wonder if I would be thinking that way in future when I grow old. Haha.

But now, I shall first think about the next 3 months and how I can survive and hopefully, secure 80 years of happiness.

Reminiscence the past, cherish the present, look forward to the future with hope.
9:57 pm

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Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Complains, again.

Sigh, passing through yet another week of school, really drains me out. I go to school everyday feeling so moodless, and return home with heavy eyes and endless assignments to complete. And I start to regret not studying harder, earlier.

I'm depending on coffee to keep me going. Save me from physics. Mathematics. And chemistry. I cannot wait to get it all over and done with.

Did you know that the length of my hair is at its longest of the 18 years o my life. And the back and sideburns are seriously irritating the shit out of me.

Pardon the whiney me, because its going to be here to stay for sometime.

Reminiscence the past, cherish the present, look forward to the future with hope.
9:43 pm

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