joie de viv-re

Monday, June 12, 2006

Learning to be indepedent.

With mum staying at my grandmother's house for approximately 3 weeks, my sis and I have been trying to upkeep the house. And I suppose during the past week, I have done more chores than I have done from the start of the year to date. And there has been a renewed sense of motivation and urgency to get things done. In the hope that my mother would not need to worry about us. The dishes are washed up as soon as they are placed in the sink. The floor moped once a while. The toilets cleaned and dried. The meals sometimes cooked, sometimes bought. I guess, its only when we are thrown and left on our own without help, that we will greater appreciate what we previously had. I learnt to complain less about the food, because I finally understand how painstakingly it was prepared. Not that I enjoy it, but I keep my mouth shut and just get on with eating it. Right now, there are absolutely no quarrels about household duties. We do what we believe needs to be done. No pushing and sidestepping. No procastination. I think mum would be pretty proud of us if she had installed a 24 hour webcam in the house.

I just hope she will be fine. The constant stream of visitors even up till yesterday have been around to cheer her up, although she does get moody sometimes. Because the number of things she can do now are limited and it has been really frustrating. For myself, it has been really painful to try to get myself to study for the middle year examinations. Sometimes I just dread seeing the endless piles of papers and books lined up for my revision and practice. Whilst the World Cup is on, I cannot even feel it. Because I cannot spare the time to find a place to watch the games. Just hoping to catch England's games and more so hoping that they will actually play well. I really need lots of strength to pull through the next 6 months. I have never been a study person, not even during the Ordinary Levels. And with a much wider and deeper syllabus to cover this time round, I will need to muster all the motivation, determination and perseverance.

Reminiscence the past, cherish the present, look forward to the future with hope.
7:03 pm

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