Wednesday, January 11, 2006


A heart wrenching experience.


Hearing my dad relate his account of his day today, was simply heart wrenching. Feeling the same helplessness he felt. The frustration of it all. And I just cannot believe how I live my life. Sometimes, spending money like it came without labour. Wasting away my time, like it would go on forever. And then to see, my poor dad. Slogging it out in his office. Because he needs to provide for us. I just feel so shameful. That as a son, not only did I not ease his burden, I made it greater. With the thoughtless spending. And I regret my actions. I wish my dad could find some relief. Which of us has a dad who works from 7.30am till 9pm. I do. And despite that, he never fails to take the time to send us to school, and to our army camps. Or to pick me when I finish my training. This is the kind of love I have showered upon me, but never fail to lack appreciation and gratitude. He wants the best for me, but sometimes, I don't even want the best for myself. And even if I do, I lack the determination to carry my goals to fulfilment.


I cannot understand. Because life is so unfair. When my dad works so hard, but gets left out when it comes to pay increments. He works longer hours than the rest. But gets chided for the simplest mistake he commits. However, what I do know is that I have my role model in life. I know whom I wish to mould myself after. My dad may not be the smartest. Or richest. But what he has is a spirit of diligence and determination. That in everything he do, he wants to do it to his best. And he will put in the necessary hardwork to see his tasks through. And he can suppress his pride, because he knows he needs to provide for my family.


That is why, I love him so.

Reminiscence the past, cherish the present, look forward to the future with hope.
7:47 pm


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Name:- Chen Yixiang John
Eggcrack:- 8 April 88
Religion:- Christianity
Denomination:- Bible Presybterian
Vocation:- Armoured Infantry
Email:- yixiangj@gmail.com
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When discipline is present, it is evident. It is the precise control of every aspect of one's self. It is the bedrock of success.


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For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him, should not perish but have everlasting life.
John 3:16

And we know that all things work together for good to those who are the called according to His purpose.
Romans 8:28

He who does not love does not know God, for God is love. In this the love of God was manifested toward us, that God sent His only begotten Son into the world, that we might live through Him.
1 John 4:8-9

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control.
Galations 5:22-23

For I know whom I have believed and am persuaded that He is able to keep what I have committed to Him until that Day.
2 Timothy 1:12

I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.
Galatians 2:20

I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. Finally, there is laid up for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will give to me on that Day, and not to me only but also to all who have loved His appearing.
2 Timothy 4:7-8


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